An Ode to Self-Care
Since August, I've been going non-stop. Every weekend is packed with activities and responsibilities. My weekdays are filled with unpredictable work roles and errands that never seem to end. I'm financially stretched, I wake up with my mind going 100mph and my soul yearns heavily for peace and rest. As I write this, I'm nursing hideous stress-induced eczema that have riddled my body and prolonged chest pain that makes me check my blood pressure so often.
How did I get here? How do we all get here? How do we get to this place of complete burden-carrying stress that we cannot seem to catch a break from?
As I sit here I think of how blessed I am, but how without the proper management of these blessings, what's meant to bless me quickly starts to bury me. Working on overdrive daily and not committing things in Gods hands intentionally has led me to taking on too much... and about that word "no", how has it vanished from my vocabulary? What's happened to the controlled answers and the boundaries that I've often prided myself in having?
I know it's seems like I have more questions than answers here-- but perhaps instead of always acting like we have all the right answers, we could begin to admit that we have more questions than answers. In fact it's in those examining questions that we begin to ask the right questions that bring about the right answers.
As I examine myself and my faith, I wonder: Could it be possible, that Jesus is right here and I just don't notice him? Could it be that I have found ways to unintentionally ignore him?
The beginning of self-care is realizing that you are in part spirit and in past flesh. Are bodies are a ticking time bomb, but our Spirits are eternal. Stop and think, what is in control of your life? Is it your body, on your terms, your own way? Or are you being led by the Spirit of God?
If you're anything like me, you go through seasons of either entity being in charge. It's a tug of war that I often forget exists in the chaos of day to day challenges. As I sit here completely exhausted, I am all too reminded why God created our bodies to be so perishable. In a way, God wants us to realize that living by the Spirit allows us to live life accordingly to an eternal mindset and capacity which goes beyond what your body is created to handle. It is also this same divine Spirit that tells us when to take a break and reminds us to depend more on God.
If you have any desire to live a whole, passionate and fulfilling life, self-care rooted in Christ is a must. By starting off each day with prayer and weaving moments of prayer throughout your day, you are reminding your body that the Spirit of God is in charge. This also lets God know that you are willingly giving permission to Him to lead you and protect you.
Stress is as a result of not trusting in and depending on God as you should. It is a result of internalizing all of the responsibilities you've been given instead of truly committing them in prayer.
In the midst of the ambitions of your vision boards, demand of work and school, and overly perfectionist nature-- do not forget to lean on God and find refuge in His peaceful embrace.
Taking Care of Yencko